and, so it begins…
rebuilding from the smouldering embers
the flame long forgotten: anger?
maybe. the emotion is different:
steaming from a place that can be explained;
we are our childhood, we are our memories;
now finally, i end my watch:
of empathising and “figuring things out”
now i go on the journey i chose to not take:
on a chilly winter the day after my birthday in 2020,
our of fear, out of worry to miss out, out of worry of losing what i believed was true,
now, i go inside. finally. away from noise:
in solitude by choice.
an attached yet detached monk in the city
now, i rebuild from the smouldering embers the city that was promised,
the foundation always available;
10 years of superficially challenging myself ends:
this goes beyond physical & mental toughness.
this requires something else.
something resembling apathy.
something resembling choices.
something beyond and above me.
the second city shall be built.
rise.