i lost the song i used to get lost in
i forget the words & what they stood for
the roads that were reminiscent with the song are lost too
maybe, just maybe, i took far too long
and now i am a prisoner of my ways
and i have to go on, though i want to stay.
find a new song that reminds me of her days
her eyes, her smile, her tears, her lies
and each day i live to make it happen
and each day, with passing hours, the thought dies.
what did i see in those eyes?
was it a promise of a future i did not know
that will make the pain go away
but pain was a better lover of mine than you
you are gone; it stayed
was it cause i don’t pray?
or was it because i betrayed
how i was not in it from the start,
figuring out you was too big a task
when i was yearning for someone else’s heart
there were these eyes, that led to sunset
smile: the reason for religions
hair; reminiscent of waves
her: my dreams and vision.
was she the treatment or was she my addiction?
took far too long to get over it; and one day i woke up sane
after a long time felt no pain
and the pain that had stayed for the past 3 years
suddenly, out of the blue, went away
that pain had scars, that pain carried death
grief; stemming from the dying of someone that once said:
“i believe”
and though believe had a lie;
it didn’t feel that way with her words
and then in my pursuit for the eyes that were promised
i decided to travel the world
and i found them; or did they find me?
and it still feels like a dream
a dream i have yet to wake up from
a dream that goes on,
just like that lost song.
मंच 